Our conversation at bedtime tonight :D

I am remembering this the best I can.....I soooo wish I would have had a recording device!!!!

P:"Mom, Carrie died.  I miss her".  Me, "I know honey, we all do". (Carrie was in his class last year and lost her 6 year battle with a brain tumor this past Saturday at the age of 7 :( We attended her funeral together on Wednesday)

P: "How did she get to Heaven?"; Me:"Jesus came and carried her to Heaven."

P: "How?"; Me:"Well Jesus can do anything, He's amazing.  He carried Carrie, like he carried Grandma Schuller and Grandpa Jerry."

P:" And Mrs. Ullman too." (at this point I am crying-Mrs. Ullman was a beloved Sunday School teacher who died of rare bladder cancer at the beginning of June)"I still miss Carrie."  Me:"I know, and Jesus knows too.  He comes and gives us hugs when we are sad."

P:"He gives us hugs when we are sad with His hands, just like you mom." (momma trying to hold back tears) Me:"Yes, honey, just like that."

P:"Jesus loves us mommy." Me:"Yes, Jesus loves you even more than I do." P:"Jesus loves me like you do, and he takes us to His house in Heaven when we die."

There there was some more conversation about Jesus and prayer and talking to God and Jesus.  Then he comes back with:"Church is God's house.  Our church in Munster, Indiana-you can see his eye (those of you who have been in our church you know that there is a huge stained glass eye shape above the alter). He doesn't talk there because you can't see his other eye or his nose or mouth."  (okay so that had me giggle a bit!)

Then the conversation turned to us on the Earth...worms that live in the Earth.....then to subway trains should be called "earth trains" like worms are called "earth worms".I almost hated to make his little tired brain go to sleep-and still wished I had tape recorded this conversation!

And I also know that I need to not talk like he isn't listening.  He hears it all and processes more than I realize.

I'll even take the meltdown today....

Heaven gained a dear sweet angel on Saturday morning.  Carrie no longer has cancer or pneumonia or a blood infection.  God made her perfect and whole once again.  :(

My son fell into a futon (of his own clumsiness) and has a huge gash in his lower lip (fully inside, no stitches) and knocked his two upper front (baby) teeth loose-neither of the bottom teeth are loose yet.  He is on no gym, recess, or other rambunctious behavior until they heal. :(

Tonight he had an epic meltdown-over not setting the table.  Of which when asked he told me he didn't want to.  I gave his brother the job and he lost it.  Stomping and crying and yelling.  Not wanting to eat dinner.  It took well over a 1/2 hour and me moving his plate back to the counter for him to set, and get his sticker, before he calmed down.

I'm gonna guess one or both of the above problems is triggering this.  Carrie's funeral is tomorrow, we are going.  I decided that the wake would be too much for him this week.  We are also taking him home 1/2 day, as he is on a soft food diet for 7-10 days. :(

But he's here with me, for better or worse.  So is his little brother, who also has been having epic meltdowns-he just got potty trained and started preschool today. Hopefully, we have many more tomorrows.  I'm not sure how I would handle it, if there were no more :(